Have a Good Day
Updated: Mar 11, 2019
“Have a good day!”
These words are kind and a nice sentiment, and I know I find myself saying them all the time, but today when I hear them I cringe, and they grate on my nerves.
I’m not so concerned about having a good day.
It’s honestly not something I care about in the least.
What I need much more than a good day is true healing and complete wholeness.
This dark cloud that has followed me and penetrated every season of my life and every relationship I have ever had has hung around long enough. It’s time for it to dissipate and allow the sun to shine.
And I’m not talking about the sun peeking through a residual thin layer of clouds. I want full on sunshine from it’s highest place in the afternoon sky, no clouds in sight, radiating my insides, warming the cold, dark places I can no longer tolerate.
Until the day breaks and the shadows flee, I will go to the mountain of myrrh and to the hill of incense. Song of Solomon 4:6 (NIV)
I attempt to view the top of the mountain to see how far it is I need to go. As I look up all I can see are the bottoms of shoes as I am trampled and pushed to the ground and left behind.
Others seem to be making it? Why can’t I?
I am not unscathed by four decades of battle, but I am reminded that neither was Jesus. He has the scars to prove it.
I am battle weary, bruised, scarred, battered, and bleeding. I couldn’t make it up the mountain alone if I tried.
Jesus, You must carry me.
In Your strength alone I will stand on the mountain and witness You commanding the day to break and the shadows to flee. Nothing will stand between us. Nothing will hinder my close relationship with You.
Now that will be a good day!